Day 47. Things happen for a reason

Went to visit baby Harper today. She is our new niece, she's 9 days old and super alert and beautiful. Within one hour of being around Harper, my daughter Lucy completely regressed back into a baby. Lucy is 22 months old, potty trained, talks on command, sleeps in a "big girl" bed and is one of the smartest toddlers I've ever seen, but she made a turn for the worst when she saw how much attention Harper was getting. All I could think about was how crazy my life would be if I had a new born right now. It was major reminder that God gives you what you can handle. Things happen for a reason and so far 2010 has been a big fat example of that. I feel a bit bad saying this but it's on my mind and I did promise to be honest. If we hadn't lost Pearl I wouldn't be where I'm at now with my disease and treatment, my health revisions and my focus to get well. I would be a stressed wreck. My health would probably be declining at a rapid rate and I would not be where I'm at today. Even horrible things happen for a reason.