Day 177-184 Today my control is in the paint.

Just having the knowledge that the readers who know me personally will appreciate this post is about the only thing making me smile today.

I feel like I've lost control over my life. Joke right? Yes but no. I've always been a little out of control while always maintaining a "take control" attitude. Crazy and sometimes unpredictable. Fun but possibly dangerous too. There are times when I'm content, at peace and happy. Then there are those other times when I'm just plain not. At some point in the last month I lost the control of my course.

I've lost control of my health and health care so my marriage, mothering and friendships suffer too? Everything is linked together and when one fails, it feels like everything suffers.

So what am I doing about it? For the last 2 weeks I laid on the couch. I had a nasty cold and used it as a wonderful excuse to do nothing. The Fall sun shined and the late blooming flowers showed their faces but I didn't enjoy them. I got up long enough to accompany my best friend while she delivered her 3rd baby, Sophia Jean Williams. I also helped another friend search for a different suffering friend. I spent an evening out at a Spa, I thought it might help but it didn't. However, what did help was paint. I started to paint the walls in my house. Color is amazing. Today my control is in the paint.